Prayers …
Let us pray:
“What we are not make us , what we know not teach us, what we have not give us, in the most precious name of God, Creator, Redeemer and Giver of life, who is, who was, and is to come.” Amen…
The Reverend Zelda Kennedy, All Saints Church, Pasadena
Toosday … Fear …
Hello Peeps…
Sorry I have been MIA for so long. I just haven’t had any material to write about lately, besides the 30 page paper I am writing for my Certificate at the moment. I have been taking full advantage of not having anything to do during my days to sleep – and read like a madman.
I have been re-reading all of my Christopher Rice books in my library as of late:
- A Density of Souls
- Blind Fall
- Light Before Day
- The Snow Garden – presently reading …
If you have never read the younger “Rice” I highly suggest him. He’s a great writer. I have a love of all things “Rice.” Anne and Son…
It is grey, grey, grey outside. I think mother nature is going to take a dump on Montreal tonight. We could use the rain. But I guess we’ll see. At least it isn’t so humid and miserable – I commented to one of my friends tonight at the meeting that I think Montreal may escape sweltering miserable hot summer days, as there are only a couple more weeks in July – August is just around the corner, so we will be making our way into another season real soon.
This would happen to be my favorite time of the year, this entire shift from Summer into Fall into Winter … Lots of trees means lots of color. And I will be photo documenting the change as it happens here.
I really did not want to stay for the meeting tonight. My sponsor called earlier today to tell me that she was not feeling well, so she would not be going to the meeting. The topic was FEAR …
FUCK EVERYTHING AND RUN
I’ve spent this month keeping my words to myself actively listening to people in the group share each week. It’s not like I haven’t had anything to say, I just haven’t felt the need to share as of late.
A lot comes to mid when I think about fear. Memories I choose not to give energy or power. Things that linger in the back of my mind. They never really leave you, things people say and do, the sting just gets less and less as the years go by. I can’t change them, I can only change myself. And I have done that.
Tomorrow I am having lunch with my Academic Adviser to celebrate my acceptance into the M.A. Program. I wrote to the University web master to tell him of my academic promotion into the MA program. We’ll see if they change my status on the University Blog Page.
My birthday is in 10 days … YAY !!!
I have been on this diabetes diet for now 3 months and I am dropping weight really nicely. I think if I eat any more bananas, that I am going to start swinging around the apartment like a monkey. I have gotten off the soda treadmill in opt for water and crystal light. I eat fresh fruit every day. I stay away from sugary foods. I can’t have them really. But I can eat pretzels and the occasional cup of ice cream.I broke down and bought a box of ice cream sandwiches tonight on the way home. Me so bad… My numbers have been really good over the past couple of weeks. So it’s all good.
Did I mention my birthday is in 10 days ?
I made it another year, who knew ???
It’s kinda like a great big FUCK YOU to the man (my father) who used to tell me that I was a mistake and should never have been born. One day he will die and we will all mourn his passing. But like I have said before, there is NO love lost there, not one little bit…
any who … more to come, stay tuned…
