Powerlessness … Big Snow edition …
The snow began to fall late last night, and there is a lot of snow on the ground at this hour. And more snow is to follow. Upwards of 10 to 15 cm will fall through the night Wednesday.
Tonight I headed to NDG for my Tuesday meeting. There were mounds of snow all over, and navigating snow drift proved to be challenging. I arrived without incident and we had a fair showing of folks.
The one overriding thought about a beginners meeting, reminds us why we need to go to meetings. Because several of the young people went out over the weekend and drank, for one reason or another.
The topic came from Daily Reflections … And Step 1.
We admitted we were powerless over alcohol and that our lives had become unmanageable.
Out of custom the boy who chaired drank over the weekend. Some people were put out over this, but I countered with, well, if it helps him stay sober then so be it. He did a good job.
The whole meeting we talked about being powerless. There are things I know I am powerless over … My alcoholism, people, places and things.
But there are things I have power over, My attitude and my thoughts. Whether or not I engage with you or not, and what shit I will allow into my life and what I won’t.
I believe that the more we engage with folks the stronger our sobriety will get. But obviously you cannot transmit something you haven’t got.
Read the Book: 1000 years of Sobriety. 20 stories of folks who are sober more than 40 to 50 years. Their over arching message is all the same.
DON’T DRINK, AND GO TO MEETINGS.
Because we heard tonight, young people thinking that they could control their drinking, spurred on by the drinking of friends and fellows, and just wanting to be able to capture the control THEY have – knowing in the end that the pursuit of controlled alcoholic drinking is pointless.
The moment I think I am powerful over the drink, that is the moment that I will drink. If I forget for one moment that I can drink like normal people ( and what is normal in today’s world) I have lost myself in the drink or the thought of a drink.
In the past, I have taken back my will, and things began to to downhill. We heard this also tonight, that taking back one’s will ended folks in detrimental circumstances – hurting others – lying and cheating … etc …
Having slipped, and many of us have in the past, we have a true respect for the drink and the severity of the need to get sober. There was a lot of pain in the room having to battle back after drinking and using. And many of us can identify with them and understand where they are, because we were there once.
Admit, come to, make a decision, turn it over, stay in your day, one day at a time. All these are important to consistent long term sobriety.
Grateful for the meeting and the friends who were there. I know I am powerless over the drink, because the message is loud and clear, that if I take it back, I will drink again.
Pray for our young people.
More to come, stay tuned …