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Tuesday – All or Nothing A.B.S.I.


Fall is definitely coming. Temps dipped into single digits and close to zero overnight last night. It was a cool night as the sun went down this evening.

I am hopeful that the cooler the nights get, the sooner the trees will begin turning. We are just weeks away from the first big holiday of the season, with Thanksgiving coming on the 13-14th of October.

It would not be strange for temps to be cold come the end of October, and quite possibly we will see snow in some Canadian locations.

I departed early for my 90 bus to Vendome – but as I stood there will a multitude of people, the bus did not come, but they were stacked one behind the other at the location buses wait for their next run. (Which is right at Cabot Square – Right where we were waiting for the bus to come).

A 63 showed up after we waited at least fifteen minutes, and folks packed that bus, which left us, the 90 folks, still waiting. A bus was coming UP towards the square on a run Westbound, Cabot Square is the endpoint of the 90 run (West) and it made the turn around and pulled through the square and took on new passengers while the other buses that were waiting remained at the kiosk.

It is still a construction nightmare at Vendome Metro. So I was a little late in arriving – but was still the first person there to make coffee. We received good news from our Trusted Servant tonight that the meeting has a new home.

As of October 1st – we will be meeting at Notre Dame de Grace Church on Decarie and NDG Avenue… Right down from Villa Maria Metro and on the #24 bus line. The 24 originates (Eastbound) from Villa Maria.

Hopefully this change will bring back folks who have stopped coming because the informality of the hall we have been in since the NDG food depot came to town. We’ve been needing this change of location for some time.

I’ve emailed Inter-Group with the new location information to be printed in our Blue Sheets and the directory and the online website meeting locator.

We hosted a small group. They might not be big numbers, but at least folks are still showing up.

The chair read from A.B.S.I. and – All or Nothing …

“Acceptance and Faith are capable of producing 100 percent sobriety. In fact, they usually do; and they must, else we could have no life at all. But the moment we carry these attitudes into our emotional problems, we find that only relative results are possible. Nobody can, for example, become completely free from fear, anger, and pride.

Hence, in this life we shall attain nothing like perfect humility and love. So we shall have to settle, respecting most of our problems, for a very gradual progress, punctuated sometimes by heavy setbacks. Our old time attitude of “All or nothing” will have to be abandoned.”

There are a lot of buzz words in this passage and there are a multitude of routes one could take when discussing this passage. And the folks who showed up tonight went a lot of places.

From this reading we can take away the thought that we can work with “Moderation!” They say that moderation should be a catchword. Because as alcoholics, many of us could not take anything moderately. It was All or Nothing when we drank and used. And learning to step away from All or Nothing and come down into the possibility of moderation is quite a change.

Many words are written about “Acceptance” being the key to all our problems.

And many words have been written about “Faith” from the book, “Faith without works is dead!”

Fear – Anger and Pride … How many of us can say we came to the rooms, with fear, anger and pride as problems to our personal progress? Once we start to work our steps we get to list these things running steps 4 though 7.

The book speaks of progress not perfection. We are imperfect people living in a world that is imperfect. I’ve never met someone who had perfect sobriety. I don’t know a perfect sober person.

For some, in the beginning, it is an uphill slog. But as long as we stick with it and do what we are told and we listen to suggestions and slogans.

Shit happens and I don’t know form Normal. What is normal? That is a question for the ages … What is Normal?

Slow and steady usually wins the race.

And to finish off the thought … ALL or NOTHING … At the end of my drinking I was an all or nothing alcoholic. I wanted ALL the liquor, not just some. It was Go BIG or Go Home.

I am glad that All or nothing was reworked and I learned to put the same force and zeal towards my sobriety that I did when I usually drank. Which is probably why I haven’t had a drink in almost twelve years.

A good night was had by all.

More to come, stay tuned …


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