Last Tuesday of the month
We are sitting at (0c) right now. It is clear and cold.
I departed early for the Metro route so I could spy the mall. They have uncovered some new store frontage on the Entrance Way off Atwater into Alexis Nihon.
And they have (from what I could spy) cut out the far staircase coming out of the Metro station and they are building a store space in that area. The traffic re-route seems to be working. I went by Target the other day and look see’d into the roll wall. The store seems to be complete, I could see registers waiting and the area where they are keeping overflow shopping carts.
We must be coming close to the reveal in the next few weeks.
It seems that the ground floor footprint has been set, with the moveable kiosks moved behind the escalator bay, instead of in front of it which was taking space up in front of Target. I guess they don’t want the blockage in front of their new store.
The upper floor is still “in process” they still need to tile a great deal of space and uncover all the new store frontage next to the IGA on both sides. It won’t be long before Christmas decorations go up in the mall. They may be waiting for the reveal to decorate.
I took the Metro up to the church today. It was a 30 minute transit, walking back down the hill a bit to the church. On the way out after the meeting I chaired the business meeting, and caught the bus that was just coming down the hill.
It was my last week chairing. One of our other old timers is in the chair for next month and we have a newbie working the coffee pot.
I just picked up my A.B.S.I. on the way out and tossed it into my bag. I wasn’t really prepared to chair and wanted something simple to read. It was a small group, but the same familiar faces, if we have two guests besides the group members, it is a good night.
People are already changing their meeting routines as the season has changed. We aren’t getting the same number of newbies we used to when we were at Trinity. People are traveling in cliques, and when one changes their mind on where to go, they all follow each other. And there are two other meetings competing for bodies tonight. Oasis in NDG and Tuesday B’s in Westmount.
I chose: Key to Sobriety … pg. 257
“The unique ability of each A.A. to identify himself with, and bring recovery to, the newcomer, in no way depends on his learning, his eloquence, or any special individual skills. The only thing that matters is that he is an alcoholic who has found a key to sobriety.”
The message speaks about Dr. Bob and Dr. Silkworth, and Bobs realization that his alcoholism was news to him, bad news …
But when Bob and Bill met that first time and they conversed it was an instant attraction and identification. Bill carried the message and Bob was receptive to that message. And together they worked on and fulfilled a common goal.
To carry that message to the suffering alcoholic.
The conversation varied from person to person. Because we are a Beginners group, it was a 50/50 split between old timers and newbies.
Hindsight is 20/20.
They say that the first time you get sober is a gift, the second time you have to work for it.
The first time I got sober was a blur. I was going to meetings, I was working at the bar, and I was trying to survive a death sentence. i was not “homed” at a group in the same way I am “homed” at a home group here. And there is a distinction.
It might have been a gay room that I was getting sober at, but I would not call that a “home group” just because my fellows were betting on us newcomers like racehorses to see who would go back out and drink first. I didn’t respect them, however I stayed sober.
When I moved cities, I was going to meetings but after a while coming close to and picking up four years, I was becoming “disconnected” from the group. I went from participating to warming a chair.
I’ve studied over the past almost twelve years, what I did wrong the first time, and what I did this time to maintain sobriety. Since my health has been stable now, I did not have that mortality question hanging over my head. So I could focus solely on getting sober.
I had a great sponsor – David. Then Perry – and finally Rick. Each of them had their gifts and helped me a great deal. I connected at meetings. I rooted in a home group and stayed there for a very long time. I have sat in myriads of meetings over the years, and when I decided to leave my home group of 11 years, I did so because I felt a need to move, because I felt that my experience would benefit another group of young people.
I guess I have learned a few lessons. I know what I did wrong the first time, and I can list, if needed those red flags or markers that only pointed one way:
Out The Door …
Today it is about caring for my fellows and ladies. Carrying the message. And dropping wisdom here several times a week.
You may not like the message, but I am not wasting my time here when I speak about wisdom about life. AIDS has given me that wisdom. Twenty years have passed, you’d think I am a bit wise when it comes to health and life issues.
Anyways, it was a good night. I got to see my friends.
Spend some time with them and share a meeting.
A good night was had by all.
More to come, stay tuned …