Thursday: Stability amid Turbulence
The year has begun, in our little sober world. And right now, coming off an already turbulent end to the year in 2016, things are not off to a good start.
The roller coaster has left the station, and it is full steam ahead, seat belts are necessary right now, because the ride is getting rough.
Tomorrow, the world as we know it is going to change. And we can thank all those deplorable, shit head, alt right, evangelical, don’t know their asses from a hole in the ground, voters, who are plunging the world into CHAOS …
The reports are already being circulated about just what our next president is going to do to Health Insurance, Medicaid, Medicare, and Social Security. The new administration wants to CUT, CUT, CUT the budget.
Hopefully they won’t fuck us all over at the same time. But there is a good chance that we are all going to be fucked over all at the same time.
People are protesting, all over the place. And tomorrow hubby wants to witness the United States fall into the Abyss of Insanity and I think we need to watch, for the single fact that, we need to know our enemy and know what he is thinking from the very first hour that Monster takes office.
YOU ARE NOT MY PRESIDENT MR. TRUMP. YOU WILL NEVER BE MY PRESIDENT. I DID NOT VOTE FOR YOU, NOR DO I SUPPORT YOU ONE IOTA …
The world is on edge, and people are fearful for their lives, their livelihoods, and for their families. Nobody knows what this maniac will do first. And we are POWERLESS to change anything right now.
If Democrats have half a brain, they will OBSTRUCT, OBSTRUCT, OBSTRUCT for as long as it takes, until our president looses his office. Republicans, during the Obama presidency, obstructed him from his very first day in office.
THE BEST THING DEMOCRATS CAN DO NOW IS RETURN THE FAVOR AND FUCK THE REPUBLICANS RIGHT UP THE ASS…
We cannot allow Fascism and Authoritarianism to rule one of the greatest countries on earth. If we don’t take steps to protect ourselves, nobody is going to do it for us. It falls to the citizens to stand up and tell the new president that he can go FUCK HIMSELF Ten ways from Sunday …
There is so much at stake right now, and all those people who voted for our new president, like I said before, I don’t think they truly know the monster they have released from PANDORA’S BOX …
Let Us Pray …
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January has begun with insanity and turbulence for many people. The call to “stay on the beam” was offered tonight, by a man who was my sponsor for a long time. My friends who had dropped off the radar and are back for another round showed up, which was a good thing. But folks are walking on shaky ground right now, and even though, we are present for them, nobody seems to want direction, which in that case means, until they ask for help, we are powerless to do anything for them.
The only thing that is true is that the only way to maintain stability is to keep showing up and doing the next right thing.
I have friends from other places, and I see them often, who are trying to keep their heads above water, and they too, won’t ask for help or are reticent to say anything, so the only thing I can do is be attentive and present when they are around.
I have people to work with right now that need all of my attention. So adding to the brood is not something I am interested in doing right now.
Yesterday, I had to process a scene and do an extraction of a shit ton of weed from one of my guys homes. Let me tell you, I did not want to carry that much weed into the Metro system last night, so the very first dumpster I came across, it was dumped.
I’ve not seen that much weed since I stopped using weed 16 years ago. And I had it in my hands. Not that I wanted to smoke it, but it freaked me out, nonetheless.
That Mission was accomplished. Crisis averted.
We are all trying to start this year off on the right foot across the board. My guys are the most important investment I have right now, which means I need to have a stable program of recovery for the next little while, which means:
Meetings, Meetings, Meetings.
My old sponsor has been popping up on my mental and spiritual dashboard for the last little while, and he spoke tonight, so that was serendipitous. I spoke to him after the meeting, so we will see where that leads.
Long Sober Folks, are not free of character defects. And they sure as shit are not perfect. And that has been made plainly aware to me over the last eight or nine months.
Over the years, I’ve heard certain statements come out of their mouths that kind of turn my stomach, because they have time, and can still be ignorant and stupid. Which turns me right off.
But the truth of the matter is that ANY stability in program is more useful than sailing my own ship for any length of time, on my own. And I need stability right now. And the picking are slim when it comes to Long Term Sobriety.
From Now through March, people will be coming and going, so the stable of STABLE sobriety will be hit and miss until Spring, and we have to take what we can get for the time being. And if I have to call in my pinch hitters, so be it. That will have to do, because that is what I really need right now.
Old timers might have the time, but I would not trust many of them, as far as I can throw them. UGH !!!
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We have to stand tall right now, and proceed with caution.
The world may not come to an end, but change is coming and we may not like what we get, and we are powerless over the fact that so many deplorable fuck ups voted in huge numbers that got us where we are today …
THANK YOU, YOU DEPLORABLE FUCK UPS …
This is your fault, entirely.
When the first deplorable gets on their knees to Beg for God, God will say:
YOU THINK YOU KNOW ME, BUT YOU REALLY DON’T !!!