Monday: DENIAL is not a River in Egypt
The book says that “The only thing that has to change in sobriety, is Everything.”
The book also says that “Anything you put before your sobriety will fail, that sobriety must come first, even if we think it doesn’t have to be.”
They say that “Once you take away the drugs and alcohol, and we sober up, we learn that we begin to FEEL. The question is, what do we do with these feelings?”
A meeting that falls after something tragic, or politically charged, is hard. Because people are trying to figure out what they do with their fear, or their sorrow, or their pain, or their anger or their rage?
My friends are trying to navigate that fine line between Chaos and Order. To navigate being Responsible, or to deciding not to be responsible. That is the fine line we walk, in the rooms.
When we get sober, and we leave behind the chaos that followed us around for all the years we drank and used, order comes. This usually throws people off.
- What do I do with that order?
- How do I engage,
- How do I become responsible, and finally,
- What is my place in the grand scheme of things.
Nobody should ever tell you, inside a room, that what you feel is wrong, or irrational, or childish. Nobody should ever feel that they have to tone down their feelings when they are coming at you at 100 miles per hour.
A young lady I know, was in pieces tonight over all that has happened, here in Quebec, and worldwide. She needed to know what to do with her feelings, and how to deal with them…
Feelings come and go. And sometimes they are overwhelming. I know from emotional catastrophe. I also know what it felt like for someone to call me irrational during one of the hardest moments in my life, not so long ago.
I think, in my opinion, that we should feel what we feel, in whatever degree it comes to us. And when that happens, if we do this thing soberly … Depending on how much time you have, not to allow our feelings to push us out to either drink or use.
Having people around us when the waters are choppy are crucial, so that we are not alone in the boat, whilst navigating choppy seas.
- I will stand with you, and allow you your space,
- And I will support you,
- In whatever way I can.
Pandora’s Box is open, and the Monster I warned everybody about is wreaking havoc in the United States. We must find a way to stop him.
Uncertainty rules the day. Fear is ruling the day as well. Sorrow has filled the hearts of many, because on Monday night, we meet in a church, INSIDE the church. Where we are safe, warm, and secure.
Last night, in a similar sacred space, the sanctity of life and the sanctity of the practice of religious faith was rocked with a deranged young boy, with Far Right leanings, a boy who WAS a Navy and then an Army Cadet …
A fucking Cadet … for God’s sake …
Walked into a prayer service and began shooting innocents. Six are dead, many more were injured, some critically. Reports are all over the map, so I stuck to the basics. But today I had to post the face of this young boy, one of our own Canadian boys, who lives in this free country, where he was educated and lived.
And in a split second he took on the role of Judge, Jury and Executioner …
It was not a Muslim man, perpetrating injustice on his own people, it was a Francophone CITIZEN who killed a handful of innocents.
If we deny what we feel,we minimize our own expressions of those feelings. Because for so long we drowned what we felt with booze and drugs. And now so many are in this place, of not knowing what to do with themselves, because we are all feeling a wide expanse of feelings …
Anger, Sorrow, Fear, Rage, just to name a few…
People are sad, people are angry, people do not know what to do with all that is going on in the world. And we also know, or will find out, that on a grand scale we are powerless to affect change or do anything but express how we feel, to whomever will listen.
We can attend memorials. We can march in the streets. We can sign petitions.
We can sit in our depth of feeling and let the water roll over us and take us and drown us, or we can allow the water to wash over us, and we learn what to do with what we are feeling in a positive and constructive way.
The only thing I can share with you is what I do when I am feeling any one of the above referenced feelings … I talk, I cry, I scream, I rage, then I write.
We must Stand as ONE, we must Speak as ONE, we must Act as ONE.
To the bitter end.
We must not give up our rights or our freedoms, where ever you live, in what ever country or state. We must fight for our dignity, respect and rights of every human being, as the Constitution gives us as Citizens.
If the government thinks that they can just rip the Statue of Liberty off her plinth and forget the words etched on her tablet and spit in the face of the millions of people who passed by her looking for a better life, they are WRONG. Very WRONG.
Here in Canada, we must state categorically that we abhor violence and the killing of innocents. The houses of religious practice are sacred, and should be respected that way. Because if you come and taint our house of worship with your violence, you incur the wrath of the very God you seek to destroy.
We will punish you to the fullest extent of Canadian law.
We Remember, We Mourn, We Feel, We are Sad, and we are With You.
The killing of innocents is abhorrent.
The banning of people from achieving a safe, secure, and solid home, where they can live without war, suffering or hunger, is abominable.
Do You Hear Me Mr. Trump, It Is Abominable.
You are abominable.
Hear us, as we Speak, March and Rise as ONE.
We Will Never Be defeated. We Will Never Bow to Terror. We Will Stand up and be Counted.
We are Québécois, We are Canadians. We are Americans.
We Are the People.